Agony

I marvel the way you still hold me in your mind and dreams..
because I see it in the way you see me...

But I know things have changed...
because I desired for a thing that I knew would 
destroy me in the end...

Your memories have grown edges like a knife...
that cut deep down inside without letting the blood out...

The hole created in my heart is shaped like you...
because no one else can fit in it....

but.....

I have become stronger than depression and braver than loneliness...
and nothing will ever exhaust me again...

Because I will walk slowly...
but I will never walk backwards....